Thursday, June 7, 2007

cOnFuSeD


im confused
im confused bout my life
im confused bout my feelings
im confused bout da ppl dat i call friends
right now im juss in a state of confusion wat im i gonna do???
i dunno
my life is nothin more than confusion right now
im doin nothin goin nowhere
im not depressed but den again i rlly dunno
i could be depressed.............. but y??
alot of ppl would say "ur 15 u cant be depressed"
but depression dun come wit an age
but im not depressed i hav nothin to be depressed bout
or do i?? would goin to 3 funerals in 3 months depress u??
would bein away frm the only family u kno for two yrs and only havin
ur mom and bro with u depress u?? would bein somewhere u rlly
dun wanna be depress u??
would ppl constantly comin in and out of ur life depress u??
would constant dissatisfaction wit ur self depress u??
how bout the feelin of loneliness even when ur wit the ones u love??
would not knowin if da ppl u call friends r rlly ur friends
or ppl dat juss like usin da word??
or am i takin small things and makin them bigger than they r??
or am i switching bein confused wit depression??
there alwasy seem to be more questions than answers
but seems like for me there are nothin but questions
and no answers
and havin no answers means more questions
which juss adds to more confusion
ppl always say life is full of wonders well.....
im sicka wonderin
im sicka wonderin when im goin to anotha funeral
or if i tell dis "friend" somethin will everyone kno by
the end of da day........ im sicka wonderin who to trust....
im sicka bein confused

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