wHo aM I??

Who am i?? wat does dat question rlly mean? No one rlly knows everyone has a diff understandin of wat dat question is rlly askin?? I understand dat question as askin not only my identity but also who I am as a person
So…. Who am i?? sad thing is dats a question even I cant answer. I could tell u that I'm a person who enjoys music and loves to laugh but dats not rlly who I am dats wat I like to do. I could tell u dat I'm a person who’s somewhat book smart and can do almost anything with the computer but again dats not who I am those r juss things I can do
To some ppl this question doesn’t seem that complicated but if u think bout it do u really KNOW who u are??

sUiCiDe

Suicide
Is it worth it?? Does it rlly solve da problem??
Does it truly free some1 frm depression and confusion??
Or does it add to the pain?? does it make life worse for not only da person dat commits suicide but the ppl they left behind??
Wat about da problems they had??
Are their problems gone forever or do they simply get passed to someone else?? If the person committed suicide does that make the problems they had any worse than the problems dat someone else may have?? Or does it simply make that person a coward for takin the easy way out?? Did they do it cuz they even had a problem??
did they do it cuz they felt no one cared?? Or cuz they felt they had no one, they felt as if they were alone?? Is it possible that they rlly didn’t have anyone?? Or maybe they rlly didn’t hav any friends or that they were in reality, alone in da world??
How long were they feelin like suicide was da answer to their problem?? How many days did their life go on b4 they knew it was time for them to go?? How many ppl ignored the signs that something was wrong?? How many ppl walked by and knew something was wrong with them but could care less??
Wat kinda person decides to commit suicide?? Are they a bad person for feelin dat suicide is da answer?? Or are they a brave person for doin it?? Or once they’ve done it or attempted to commit suicide are they deemed as someone who juss cant handle stress??
Who’s fault is it?? Is it their fault for no bein able or not wantin to deal wit da stress in they life?? Or is it their family friends fault for not realizing that something was wrong??
So many questions and the only ppl that can answer them are the ones that have done it But the in reality no one can answer these questions cuz the ones that have done it cant speak cuz their gone and da sad part is these questions don’t come up until that person is gone…

NOTE: FOR NO REASON SHOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS MY WAY OF SAYIN THAT IM CONSIDERIN SUICIDE. I NEVER WILL AND NOR HAVE I EVER CONSIDERED SUICIDE. THIS IS SIMPLY MY WAY OF EXPRESSING MYSELF

cOnFuSeD

im confused

im confused bout my life

im confused bout my feelings

im confused bout da ppl dat i call friends

right now im juss in a state of confusion wat im i gonna do???

i dunno

my life is nothin more than confusion right now

im doin nothin goin nowhere

im not depressed but den again i rlly dunno

i could be depressed.............. but y??

alot of ppl would say "ur 15 u cant be depressed"

but depression dun come wit an age

but im not depressed i hav nothin to be depressed bout

or do i?? would goin to 3 funerals in 3 months depress u??

would bein away frm the only family u kno for two yrs and only havin

ur mom and bro with u depress u?? would bein somewhere u rlly

dun wanna be depress u??

would ppl constantly comin in and out of ur life depress u??

would constant dissatisfaction wit ur self depress u??

how bout the feelin of loneliness even when ur wit the ones u love??

would not knowin if da ppl u call friends r rlly ur friends

or ppl dat juss like usin da word??

or am i takin small things and makin them bigger than they r??

or am i switching bein confused wit depression??

there alwasy seem to be more questions than answers

but seems like for me there are nothin but questions

and no answers

and havin no answers means more questions

which juss adds to more confusion

ppl always say life is full of wonders well.....

im sicka wonderin

im sicka wonderin when im goin to anotha funeral

or if i tell dis "friend" somethin will everyone kno by

the end of da day........ im sicka wonderin who to trust....

im sicka bein confused